1. Conditioning, not as outside influence..matrix..programming...authority...as the conditions of our ever changing environment & atmosphere, quality and sensory perception of limitless inner space.
2. Ego, not as a separated idea or concept of personality, that is fixed or exclusive that needs to be got rid of - but rather honored as the one who is transforming; the fluid "I" or "me" expressing individuality, appearing ever changing in nature.
3. Oneness, not as undefined, emasculating/un-individuated, sharing everything ~ whats mine is yours, (possessiveness & greed), universal love is being physically open and intimate without reservation or discernment; truly as the opening in the head centre to the absolute, expressing as the embedded realisation of our unified nature, that is the ocean of consciousness and true nature of the one infinite dream.
4. Awareness; not as observing, separate higher looker: As pure. The pre-essential taster of what forms me, the first properties of being, unique in nature.
5. Higher self - heaven
Lower self - earth
(higher and lower as words represent the spatial nature of hemispheres, they are
The dissolution of lack of self acceptance reveals everything, according to its nature ?
the magic of my kin
it is a love
that blossoms a thousand
dancing life times
of ancient Earth
stirring each petal open
again and again
with the seeds
of sacred thought
Love is so delicate and tender ~ passionate and alive ~ there is no wisdom ~ there is only willingness of body, mind and heart to feel, be and direct its many faces...
Love feels her way through life like a river with no end. Sometimes feeling here can be with out love, and love with out feeling ~ love is a mystery to which we are heavenly bound; there is no sense here; there is only the continuation of experiencing.
Sometimes the tree of love bears so many fruits at once I become drunk with feeling and at other times I feel deep sadness well up from deep within, as love reveals the gaps between things that are lacking. Fear places that are not yet ready to fully emerge as this love.
Sometimes love asks me be alone, so fully alone that I almost forget love because I am used to seeing her in the face of other.
Aloneness I have learned is the pathway of initiation, of love. Aloneness is the letting go of all that I have known and experienced to a point of becoming no-one, no thing.
Then like a seed from the dark love blossoms into something again, and asks me to be dynamic and moving, meeting, responding ~ love becomes the freedom of the happening, the doing. Freeing the desires and allowing them to become the substance of which my dreams are made of, giving them space to move.
Togetherness I recognise to be the alchemy of love, the living~being of love, a continuous flame of creativity, an inspired movement of life waking up to itself.
I feel I am blessed to be living as a privileged lover, to dance with other in magic and mystery to a point of total ecstasy, time and space collapsing in on each-other into a continuous folding and touching of of life onto itself. To be so full that you pour over and over into other like a fountain of prosperity.
At the same time this privilege shatters and humbles my hearts illusions over and over, I fall from such assumed heights. So naked we must be, to love as such; so utterly ready to die into the heart of not knowing.
I see that all beings desire this little death of love, every heart just wants to melt and become absorbed into the river...as the river feeling....ecstasy exploring...
Everyone wants to claim and be claimed in such love ~ to penetrate and be penetrated as one~self, so fully, deeply.
This is the fulfilment of love through the living union.
The key to love is I see, so beautifully simple ~ no mystics are needed here ~ no great meditation or body ability ~ simply in each moment to offer our authenticity & transparency with ourself and desire of for intimacy, be it within us, felt as us, or recognisable in another. To bow our heads to our hearts and to let go of knowing and direct the feeling according to our own inner guidance as we choose ~ a continual state of self acceptance that inspires surrender to what is happening, now, and now...and now.
Eventually self acceptance becomes so embedded, so inclusive, you become the transparency, and nothing is recognisable to you as not authentic. This invites a state of total receptivity to all experiencing and there becomes no place you cannot be, no-thing that is no filled and recognisable as love.
This is loves directive and the art of living a life full of magic.
Some personal notes along the way...
As you begin to come to terms with your primordial nature destruction will be called back into balance with life, as you come home to your original essence what you are will simulate with oneness towards the transmutation of any and all distortions of this basic force. This can appear as a break down in reality, the end of what has been known or experienced before. Ultimate death to the "I" or "me"
When there is separation ("I" thought) from divine will and the unchanging, destructive-ness drives against your true nature, opposed to moving you towards the realisation of what you truly are; the fixation on what we are not causes identification with broken-ness, death and suffering becomes dense.
This broken-ness of "I" or "me" is the essential evolutionary stage blossoming eternal realisation. The greater the willingness to be broken and die, the swifter the slice.
The grace of the silver sword blossoms the kind of love that is willing to kill and die according to nature, beyond identification with harm or pain.
When all lights go out, remember surrender is sacred ~ and breath...breath...you are deeply loved the depth of forgetting you choose to go into, reflects the depth of that truth you have chosen become.
The only thing that can separate life and death is an "I".
The separation of life and death, becomes the great mis understanding of life with out death and death without life. What if this this basic mis-understanding was the only thing stopping you from from making a leap in consciousness?
There is a darkness in me, as there is a beauty in you. When we twist one for the other we create something ugly of our nature. Allowing yourself to be the cause of pain, to accept that this is true about you ~ this will deeply change how you have known yourself to be. You begin to taste an untouchable wisdom as you surrender to the worst of yourself. Within the slow steady melting of a deepest fear you will find such heart, grace will reveal the ecstasy there, a unified embodied state all parts were pointing towards.
Imagine the worst; then ask yourself ~ what if this is true about you?
Surrender ~ feel, listen, taste, embrace & allow
Sit at the seed
The root of belly & being
Where in lies the most heavy & foul
Watch, Let, Allow, Be
dismantle, dissolve, melt
Surrender is Sacredness
Are you willing to make the journey?
Unsupported, false reality collapses
As radiance ripples
Your Impassioned flame
Provoked to stir anew from the depths of transition and change
Loathing, hatred, nightmares alight
Fierce as love
Impeccable as light
Transmuting as prayer