Loves Confusing Joy; A Letter from the Path
If you want what visible reality can give,
you’re an employee.
If you want the unseen world,
you’re not living your truth.
Both wishes are foolish,
but you’ll be forgiven for forgetting that what you really want
is love’s confusing joy.
The sun is opening around me as I touch myself with the keys of the computer, dropping into the core of my heart I search for that space of innocence from where I hope these words will be born. I feel a softening in reflecting upon the invitation to share with the world, in the hope that it may not only serve me in celebrating the path I have walked and continue to walk, but serve to inspire others on their path.
Listening to the heart is a skill, that requires a high quality of understanding what it means to feel with authenticity.
The quality of truth that lies within that is unmistakable, it is noticeable because it contains a fresh like innocence that knows no details, no story, simply with what is in the body and once felt and acknowledged it often gracefully changes.
My heart at present is alive with love, it is not an emotion, but a presence, to support awakening into this we can let go of all that love outside of us has been defined to be, and all that is seemingly so real within us that has moved us out of knowing, that truthful state of being, is love. Not in love or out of love. Just love, undefined, uncontainable, unadulterated – not yours not mine, but all - in innocence.
This is not a mental understanding but until it becomes an embodied realization which can hold space to be integrated from a mental higher truth, it is the seed we sow trusting and then knowing that it is growing into the plant that feeds us within.
You are perfect as you are....
There is no right or wrong experience, know all in your life is perfect as it is, you are perfect as you are, so drop that story, that resistance, that fight to change it, to be something other than who you feel you are in this moment. Resistance to what is will only serve to separate you, let that one go...that is no longer useful to you any more.
We are so confined and limited by systems of belief that are so internalized we struggle to see the truth that lies within them, it is all we seem to have known and learned here, but truly it is all we have chosen to remember because it feels too frightening to surrender to what is, and embrace something that we cannot see, define or cling to or that the tribe that we feel defined by do not seek to consciously reach out to.
A Safe State of Separation...
And so the irony of our homeostasis clings us into a safe state of separation from wholeness and love. Learn to be compassionate with yourself and others as in truth we are all reaching out to love and awakening into true nature to the best of our ability in each moment. Sometimes that ability is is weak, or impossible to notice as perhaps it is still a deeply unconscious process because the material between us and that truth is still too painful to be awake to, so it needs to play out unconsciously maybe with drama and great suffering, until we are ready to awaken into a more conscious engagement with this reaching into and opening out. This readiness may or may not be in this life time.
This blossoming by nature is a process every living thing is a part of, we are just another leaf on the tree of life, as we too blossom and die again and again, we are engaged in a timeless process.
A knowing beyond the mind.....
Do you remember.....?
These are all examples of when your heart touched the knowing beyond the mind but you could not surrender, the part of you that could not surrender is trying to be seen, felt and acknowledged, so listen, be open and notice what is between you and sovereignty of the heart.
The solution does not lie at the layer of the problem, but within ourselves.
Re-connect do not disconnect.
Becoming your own master....
This is a path, not a moment of aha or mental cognition, but a living awareness. In the beginning it is a road of inquiry, opening to an understanding of what presence is, and how can it serve you to deepen into it. As this road develops so does your understanding of what it means to be true to yourself and therefore others in each moment, and how you can develop your awareness and thus be open to what lies beyond the limitations of your current view point, and in flexibility you can dance with life's experiences, rather than be swept up into the drama of your making.
Frequently asked questions......
These questions require you, as a self responsible, autonomous being to discover for yourself.
The Alchemy Tools for Self Mastery are sets of techniques and practices that move to meet these questions, as they provide a framework for inquiry, healing and understanding of your experience of yourself.
No one else can tell you what truth is, they can only hold space, be a container of safety and inspire you to give yourself permission to walk through the doorways that may be of service to you.....It is experiential.
Anything any one tells you, including the words in this article, I implore you to not believe in it with absolute certainty. Take it, play with it, be curious, and discover what it means to you, experience your own realizations within it and learn what it means to be your own master, your own teacher.
Learning how to discern between the time to ask for help and the time to find that help from within you, knowing both are equally valid and part of being masterful.
Sovereignty is a path of becoming undivided in individuality. Remember that quality of childlike curiosity, that innocent inquirer seeking to discover all for the joy of it.. this is a beautiful quality we will cultivate together, and that will bring you back to true nature, like a coming home.
In celebration of loves confusing joy
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"The imaginal swirls with symbols, myths and forms of the unconscious mind of the individual, collective and universe as one - echoing the bridge between eternity and form.
The place where the dream can become known to itself, can be heard and deeply honored and lived.
The lucid dream is essential, formless, intangible and unknowable, yet deeply felt and lived...touching the heart of the dream within the dream, with the love of consciousness.